Yep, the time has come when I must fully release EMOTIONAL INTENSITY into the world. No short task, at least not for this rather intense writer.
So, as I prepare to let her go into the world (EEPP), I thought I’d share my four tasks for letting go (yeah, it’s loosely – very loosely – based on the tasks of grieving, but what do you expect, I am a school psych by day!)
Okay, here we go –
1) Accepting the loss:
Yep! I have to admit how hard it is to let my baby go. It’s both exciting and sad, saying goodbye. It feels so permanent, maybe because it is. The proofs are done, corrected. The books are printed and being shipped.
HOLY COW!!!! NOT YET….I’M NOT READY.
And yet, I am more than ready.
Regardless, in a few days my book will be out there for the world to see. No more time to dream about it. No more guessing what people’s reactions will be.
Have I mentioned that I panic easily????
No, I can’t hide away for a month or so and let this whole thing blow over…I have to face it and let my baby go into the world.
2) Working through my feelings:
Yeah, I am still working on this one…a lot. Just ask my poor CPs that get my panic-filled….okay TERROR-FILLED…chats and have to talk me off the ledge. No easy job, when you consider how attached I get to my crazies.
I thought about making a map to get me through it all…but that seemed more like a distraction than a solution.
So I wallow, walking through the joy and excitement, the terror and fear, trying to remember each and every moment. Trying to capture it, if only for use in another book (see, I’m always thinking!)
Tomorrow I’ll talk about the other steps I have to take – the ones after I’ve figured out how to breathe…
Oh geez….I really DO need to start channeling my inner Yoda again!
Anyone else feel like this??? Or am I the only true freak?