It’s no secret that I lost my mom just over a week ago. It’s also no secret that this has been difficult for me.
Mom’s death wasn’t a complete surprise – my mother was diagnosed with an aggressive form of cancer earlier in the year. I’ve been preparing for her death since June, even though she was pretty certain she would beat it (at least until the week before she died).
But how do you prepare to lose your personal hero?
My mom raised me as a single parent. Throughout my life – the good times, the hard times, the happy and the sad – she has remained my beacon of hope, guidance and safety. She was my number one cheerleader, my mentor and my dearest friend.
How do you say goodbye to that?
I know, she lives on in my heart and through my children – and this is something I do believe. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit to how much I’ll miss her phone calls, her hugs, and the way she and I always knew when we needed each other.
Now, I am learning how to move through my life again – a life forever changed. Not worse, but certainly different.
I know the pain will lessen…one day.
I know the tears will dry…one day.
I know I’ll remember how to breathe again…one day.
Life will resume, I will write, things will go on…one day.
Mom’s strength will help me through it, and I will find my balance again…