What a year 2010 has been – a brilliant lessons in extreme in every aspect of my life. It seems only fitting that I share a little of the year that will absolutely define me in so many ways.
New Years 2010 started off quietly – just me, my husband and the girls hanging out together. Nothing about 2010 remained quiet.
From the highs of selling my second book, launching my first book and having three – that is right, THREE – reprintings of Emotional Intensity to the lows of shelving my YA novel, having my fiction muse decide to run away, and serious thoughts of quitting writing all together, the year was a rollercoaster with regards to my writing life. There were times – many times – I wondered why I was writing at all. Thankfully all of you reminded me on more than one occasion why the writing was important.
My personal life wasn’t any calmer. Financial worries as my school district got hit hard with the California budget crisis, health concerns that left me out of work and flat on my back for a few months, heartache with friends that filled my heart and my eyes with tears as I tried to discern the relationships that were important to me, and finally, losing my mom – I think I hit all of the major life stressors this year. It’s no wonder that I end the year feeling exhausted in ways too difficult to put into words.
Through it all, I struggled – badly, I might add – to find my balance. And no, I never quite found it.
But I did find something else.
Peace. And an understanding, of sorts.
I learned new things about myself. Good things. And some things I know I need to change. I learned about my family, and found friends I never realized I had.
Going into 2011, I have a sense of purpose and direction that is decidedly different from the previous years – it is a feeling that I believe only comes from years such as this one.
As I end this year, I want to thank my friends and family members that have helped me remember to breathe this year. Your love and guidance taught me to enjoy the rollercoaster that has defined my life – you all reminded me that I could embrace the thrill of each plummet, catch my breath on every rise, and look for the amazing views I would only catch if I dared to open my eyes.
I wonder what 2011 will bring?
How was your 2010?