We all have those days when the last thing we feel like doing is writing – or maybe this is just me. You know, those moments when you stare and stare and stare at the blank page, willing some words, ANY words, to magically appear.
Sadly, I had a YEAR of those moments.
So this year, I am determined to work through the problem. More accurately, I’m going to WRITE through the problem.
What the heck do I mean by that?
I am going to cultivate the HABIT of writing again. It’s a habit I used to have. Before last year. Before I swam in the funk of the query pond and let too many issues clog up my muse. Before I started feeling like my NF projects didn’t really count as writing since they were things I do every day in my day job.
But more about my crazy depths of despair later (I am blogging about this tomorrow).
The reality is, I lost my umff to write – I stopped writing like I meant it and started writing almost apologetically, allowing myself way too much freedom with the delete button way too early in the process (just ask my CPs – they’ve all but removed the button from my computer). I started doubting my words before they even left my head.
In short – I got stuck. Clogged. And frustrated.
My writing time evaporated as I made myself busy with excuses – both good ones (“I need to spend time marketing Emotional Intensity”) and not so good ones (“I’m never gonna figure this out so what is the blasted point anyway”). I allowed all that chatter to erode the confidence I had in my fiction writing – the confidence I never lost in my nonfiction projects.
But here’s the thing – sometimes you really do need to “fake it til you make it”. Sometimes you need to write through the problem.
One more little thing to remember as you cultivate your writerly habits – they’re just words – they can be changed. But not until to get them out of your head and onto the page.
What about you? Have you ever had a paralyzing confidence crunch???